g.u.i.l.t.y

i hate feeling guilty when i know deep inside i dont have too
im tired of feeling wrong when i know that i was right
why should i give a *dang in the 1st place..blergh
i should learn better on how to refuse n say no
and im not as outspoken as i seem..phew~

one of my fav songs back in school days..enjoy!~
just so u know, i dont really listen to rnb before as i used now..heee

me n zZzZ

after dd2 class test, to sleep without having any thoughts on test sangatlah NIKMAT!~ it feels like u just finished ur EOS padahal class test je pun..kalo bleh, everyday pun nak bangun lambat..that explain why i always late for morning class..lambat2 pun aku pg, aku TAK ponteng eh..

erm weekend plak, apa sgtlah yg aku wat..selain pg wedding faz, mana lg aku pg?? lepak rumah along je la apo lagi haa..tapi alg bz jek weekend ni, tinggal aku sorg2 kt rumah..g rumah alg pun aku asyik tdo je sampaikan along perli

'awat duk tdo ja ni? rumah hg x da tilam ka?'

heh..kureng asam sungguh..rumah aku ada jek tilam..tapi nak wat camna, dah goleng2 tu, alek2 ttdo plak..last night aku ttdo dkt hall..sedar2 je alg dh tutup lampu..aku pun bangunlaa nak masuk bilik tdo..x mo tdo dkt hall, nanti sok pagi mesti selsema..dlm gelap n mamainya aku tlanggar meja..bukkk..sakit kot kaki ni..siap lebam lagi..then, aku tdengar alg cakap..buka la lampu lenkali..helloo dia kot yg tutup lampu tadi bukan aku...poda alg..tapikan alg pun tgh capik2 je kaki dia, semo sbb futsal..so kiranya fair n square..2-2 pun sakit kaki..mlm nie alg bz lg, x sempat aku nak ajak dia mkn tempat best2 =(..n there goes my weekend..zZzZ sgt~~

*maybe i've been given hypnotics..ahha

1.1.11

its 1111 ppl..
certainly, its a nice date to get in a new relationship be it an engagement or marriage
congrats to those ppl..
me? how did i spent my new year?
since its too quiet, i can barely study
no kidding ya..
i cant stand quietness around me
its hard to focus when my mind wanders too much
my bro n sis were right
i should just go home with my parents last thursday
im better when im home
somehow, its hard to study too when u’re home
but it wont last long, only for the 1st three days maybe..
the next following days, u start to grab ur notes already
n soon u would get the momentum
its a lot happier to study at home
when u have ur family beside \(^,^)/
n not to forget, lots of food too..

whenever i feel stressed, i'll complain to my dad which goes
"abah, boring, x mau study!"
n his usual reply would be
"x mau study, bhentilah kakak..p kahwin"
me: "org bukan nak kahwin..org nak duk umah n goyang kaki"
abah: "tu la abah suruh kahwin, x mau plak"

yo yo jo abah ni..kang i bawa balik lelaki ckp nk kahwin, pengsan plak haa..
plus, if i were home, i could get lots of hugsss from adik n mak too..
n that explain why i LOVE being HOME..
oh my i should end here n start study!~

actually, i went to pariz n cpak's house today just to cure my loneliness gitu =p..
nasib dorg ada, kalo x my new year sgtlah bosan!!
we're born alone, we live alone, we die alone..
only through our love n friendship can we create the illusion for the moment that we're not alone..pheww~~

*if i were stranded on a desert island, the most thing that i would like to have is my loved ones as companions..